Alex Day 13- Continuous Writing

Day 13 (uh-oh)
Another bunch of continuous conversation and reportage from a room full of brains spinning and turning on an axis of confusion and then and then and then and then and what if and what for and what else and whatever and where is my sound scape and chatter chatter chatter chatter chatter chatter and alex is once more an…
Ellen
Crossroads
Loaded of historical stuff
Ability
Liz
I started seeing shows in everything
Very articulate
Scurrying about
A screen
Feel
Hiding
Re-visit
Trauma
Until lunch
God help us
Hahaha
Wacked
The verbal thing
A bit
The clarity of the process
I mainly heard
Dissociate
A method
A confusion of that
Removing
Pulling out
Grotowski
Fill and clear and expose
Games
Pre-investigation
A little bit torn
Chaos
A little bit longer
I am happy to enter chaos
Mess
Continue
Context
Specificity
Non-emotional
Emotional
Indulging
Me
Sorry
Balls
All
Hot topic
A precise timeframe
Blank sheet
Same but different
On the floor
Banal
Open
Page
Content
Mind me
Drama
Using yourself
Source
Situation
The right time
Some sort of dialogue
Fiction
I made a frame
Packed with emotion
Suggestion
A bit hard
Someone speaking
I don’t know if it was the English thing
Can’t decide
You know the crossing?
The crossing is important
Emerges
Rid of stuff
Slightly different
Highlighting
Responses
Attached to
Detached from
It isn’t in your memory
You
How
Process
Unnecessary
Heightened
Esthetic
Taste
Form
What is there already?
A first context
Silence
Stillness
Inactivity
Activity
Assumption
Relativity
Definition
Grey areas
Mixing metaphor
Nervous system
Circulatory system
Pulmonary system
Pitch
It’s sort of what I am kind of interested in right now
Space
Words
Short time
Reading materials
I sense
Projecting
Appearing
Re-tooling
The relationship
Enjoy the work
Ways
Of being ok with it
Perception of emotional content
Indulging
Accessing
Prioritize
Ordering
It could change any given day
13 words
An answer
It might solve
Very singular words
Coherence
Connective
Sentences
Second task
Less likely
Was it a list?
First task
30 words
On a very basic level
Limitations
And then 7
Ownership
Return to
Different emphasis
Take your time
Live spoken place
Keep producing
Pressure
Quite a leap
Delivery
1 minute
The floor
1 minute to talk
One
Word
At
A
Time
What did you think was going to happen?A strong sense of content
Personal knowledge
Rhythm of language
Simultaneous thing
Mutual
End
I wonder
I don’t know
It might be stupid
A self-made-not-tried
Make it better
Improve
Just try and see
More about the I and the you
It’s a bit long
I don’t know
Quickly explain
We don’t have to do it
Spoil
Rather do it
Shot to pieces
We should try it
I didn’t expect it
We can organize that
How long do people need?
Fine
30 minutes
Yeah
Self-doubting
I got really paranoid about it
Afterwards
Ok
Do you want me to help you?
Helping by hindering
Funny you say that
(Wendy is playing guitar)
Warm up
List of “what if?”
My interest
Not in control
The gaze
To perform
To deliver
Spin
To try
Step by step
Please learn a little text
6
7
No 6
Into the space
10 minutes
30 seconds
10 seconds
You have no control
Working out
Pairs
2 by 2
Not go too deep into what it is
The connection
A sense of the character
Creating together
Second part
That’s for you
Uncomfortable
Just the dialog
Do you want to swap?
That’s fine
Memorize
If you would shut up…
A very wonderful thing
A
B
A condom
An obscene gesture
For whom?
What for?
Remove
Not replace
Lego comes to mind
I just remembered something
Oh,
I’m afraid it is something else
The milk
The iron
The opposite
I used to feel like…
Did you write that down?
Something of it
Something of it?
Shhhh
Everybody’s learning
I can’t remember
Oh, Stanley
Hahaha
Rape
Crunch crunch
Nuts
“You mean, I have to sit through-? You mean I have to look at-? Oh, no, I said, it was horrible

“Of course, it was horrible, smiled Dr. Branom, “violence is a very horrible thing. That’s what you’re learning now. Your body is learning it.”

“But, I said, I don’t understand. I don’t understand about feeling sick like I did. I never used to feel sick before. I used to feel like the very opposite, I mean doing it or watching it I used to feel real horrorshow. I just don’t understand how or why or what-“
Push
Echo
Repeat
The foundation
You do have a memory
Recall
Ok
Cool
Let’s
A circle
Frontback
Side
Mumble
Mumble
In relation to the smile
Trip over it
(Apologetic coughing)
Coffee spillage
We are all responsible
It is possible
Countdown from 20 to 0
Spinning
20 to 0
Start
The aim
Be with your partner
Be precise
Make the circle bigger
Are you an A?
Yes
I am originally a B
Yes
A B
Go
20
19
18
17
16
15
14
13
12
11
10
9
8
7
6
5
4
3
2
1
0
(eyes?)
“but I don’t understand…”
2 more people
I’d love to spin a bit longer
While you say it
Countdown from
30
(breathe in)
(stay)
(breathe out)
(stay)
0
Thank you
Wow
That’s exciting
Don’t give them any information
It’s not funny
The person got lost
Lost for longer
My next step
Your perception
Improvise
Improvise different responses
Pebbles in a jar
I tried that at home
What you feel is dizzy after
What I saw
When you see the other person
What you saw
Most interesting
Focus
Wondering
Moment
Partly to do with
Physical way
I was testing
A different pace
Perspective
Enough information
Sorry
Just A and B
Bring it
Do something
Something to do
Strong
In front of you
Continuous free form
Edit the first A part
Experience together
End?
I will
30 or 20?
I don’t know
The intention
Try and keep my shit together
Or try and lose my shit
Get inside
Address
Organize while spinning
Communication
Let’s try it
Find a count
Ok
40 or 30 from the outside
No counting
Within your frame
Guess so
Yes
The…
A different set of rules or something
Hands out
Arms stretched
Hahaha
Ready when you are
1
2
3
I don’t understand
I am generally interested in what is not clear
The ambiguity is exciting
There always is this moment when
Get you there without your consent
Discrepancy
The dialogue
After
I don’t hear
A sort of in between
I saw some moments
Something wrong
I can’t really point it out
Not a response
Third phase
Physically
Device to provoke
Simplistic way
Come out of it
Memory
Also
Can…
I am getting frustrated talking about it
You can change
No
Continuing reference
Same direction
Half way through
I might
Watch your arms
Giggle
Easy
Yeah
How much?
7
(PK screams)
The choice is yours
Too easy
End
If not…
Of course
Are you learning?
I mean…
Being fine is a horrible thing
Violent
Your body is learning that now
Tired
Stopping is a very horrible thing
It might not be the official end
But…
The gyroscopic I and You
Habitual ways of operating
Creating strategies
Induce more
Disorientation
To overcome
The “what’s” trying to mess them up
“What is the what?”
It’s the three things
Articulation
Avoidance
Control
I don’t know what it means not to believe
On top of you
How do you approach it?
A brief window
Determine qualities
Wanted to achieve
In my imagination
Sometimes I hate talking
I’m out of myself
1st stage
+
Delivery
2nd stage
Me and other person
3rd stage
What is the end?
See what happens
I wonder
Just stay at that stage
Not in control
Taking drugs
The real question
Investigation
Imagining
Investigation
Broken conversation
Other ways to feel
Yeah, even though
The length
Is irrelevant
I did
“Our” perception
Interpretation
Criticism
Maybe it is just a visual impression from the outside?Getting back to the confusion
We agreed
Of course
I’m curious
Articulated properly
It wasn’t bad
I realized a lot of things
My imagined projection of the outcome has not been fulfilled
A gross measure
A tendency
Another layer of the Meissner I-You thing
Complicated
I guess
It kind of
That
And that
And and that
My body
My mind
Reflex
How do you get back together?
I can make decision
There is a deep reflex of my body to not be fucked up
Kinda’ normal
Normality
2 possibilities
A third thing
That’s what I am asking
A really exciting thing
Try it
My challenge
I feel exhausted
Just think about it
But more
Trust
The practicality
You can’t make people understand
Make possible the environment for discoveries to be made
Each
Own
Each
I
Create a state
In a less personal way
Express myself
You
Play with the thoughts
Intellectually
Disorientated
No
Lunch?
Shall we take a moment to find another moment?
Aspects
Actually
Inappropriate
You feel done for today?no, actually no
It’s good to…
After lunch?
Changing perspectives
It isn’t this
An hour or so…
As reflections coming forward
Thumbs up
Definitely lunch.
After lunch
Role playing
Whole thing
Fill in the gaps
Not managing
Until now
Today I felt
Documenting your own response
Source of text
I thought less about feelings
Away from being away
Does anyone want to dramaturg?
Initial point
Done before
Exercise
I guess not
Did I say that?
This arm is starting to feel alive again
I love partnering
Weight bearing
We had a moment
I laugh
I laughI love
Contact improvisation
Spinned out
I’d be quite happy to watch
Would you rather lead
An observation one
An experience
For fuck’s sake
An expression of exasperation
Can we move on please?
For god’s sake, just with fuck instead of god
Preparation
Flick a book
Find a word
Have a conversation
Within 2 minutes
Once
And once only
Sign language
Look
Or whatever
30 seconds
Face
Hands
Arms
I just wondered
Your part of the conversation
Translating
Hands together
Very precise
End
Hands together
Earnest research process
Giggling is not allowed
Just for your pair
A starting point
One of the people
Participate
Participate
Blahblahblah
Document, document
Blahblahblah
A general notion of what that means somehow
Volunteer
Turn the world upside down
How long will it take to adjust?
48 hours of course is a long time
See in a body
Regrouping
I am fine
Like penguins
Prone to vertigo
Shocking
The art world
10 minutes
What you just described…
The goggles are removed
It has never been done before
Normalize
Witness
I don’t know
You just have to try
A film of a woman
Unstable dancer
Back of a truck
Stability project
One really beautiful moment
Stuck
Captured
Valid
Awkward
Demonstrative examples
Well, that’s assuming that we know how to stand up
Being hurdled around
A huge achievement
My boyfriend is deaf
Balance
Walk
For granted
Balance on a log everyday
A bit of a leap
The lengths people go
Culturally viable
Appears like something is happening
Entertainment
Really still
Stand up for
2 hours
Practice listening
My first incident was the film
This is related to what?
I’m sorry
How you balance on the bones of your feet
We’re unconscious
Creeping
Crawling
Toppling
We’re here
We’re for granted
There is a beautiful thing that happened in New York
Then something would happen
A really massive cement block
Hanging by hair
Ok
Witnessing is valid
I thought about a description
I can almost handpick my memories
She’s looking around
And I find it touching
Curling up
Beautiful sky
Down dark
And then again
That’s nice
The dog
Vulnerability
Guess that or whatever
This is the earth
This or that
Maybe they adapt to that
There is a process associated with that
A word
In some way
As such
All these mirrored rooms
To find a partner
Suggestion?
Emotionally vulnerable
Being on the edge of hysteria
Seeking that
As a state
Circumstances adding voluntarily to being vulnerable
Learning or changing
Make you vulnerable
Less conservative
A way of deconstructing
Deforming
Reconstructing
Tea?
15 minutes
I am relying
I would like a bit of time
Headspace
Meandering now
Squeeze in the washing and the eating
Around the edge
Sit
Inside you
A perceivable outcome
They don’t imply any pace
Particularly tired
Pepper the conversation
With doing
Loose focus
Towards next week
We’re trying not to accumulate
A theatre space
Capitalizing
Approach
New space
A big difference
Dissipate
Purely about having an experience
Are we just going to feel that?
What is the mood at the moment?
Verbal activities
I delight
It constitutes
It is not unlike dancing
Further my understanding
Also
The same
Subjectively
Energy
Rush past sticky moments
Stickiness
We don’t want to miss stuff
Crack open the form
We’re being habitual again…(?)
Shift
Tomorrow
Choose a gallery go to it
Punk concert
Swim outside
And get it over with
A huge picnic
I love picnics
2 days
The plan
Is
Not simple enough

Investigate the pause
A list of earlier today
Looping springs to mind
Everybody writing
This musical stuff
The physical sensation stuff
Funnel
The concerns are not the center
The content
Is
Questions in a sense…
Music is made there
And writing
Over here
Pieces of paper
Just this one thing
Getting very wide
…which is fine
They feed each other
What is we went back?
Back-wards
One pursuit
Scratching
I do
The administration
Defining
Authoring
Practicality
6 or 7 days
5 days
My appetite for chocolate cake, for example
North
South
The wind again
A great buffet spread before us
There is a buffet and there is a buffet
Hoola hoops
As best as we can
Salmon
Crisps
Fishsticks
Should I bring my book tomorrow?
Interview techniques
Maybe it’s nothing, but…
There is a private act to be experienced
The whole book lurches through
My response
Yours or Yours
Israeli food
Any kind of food
Your recipe
You have no idea
Taste
My need
Your need
…with a sort of theme for the day…
According to me
I thought it was fine
The cumulative effect
Complete dish and then you are full
A list of metaphors
A practice
Hahaha
My activities
Integrative behaviors
A political statement
Passing by or on the phone
Crossing of the mind
Unspoken
Consensual jamming
The choice to not leave the building
None of this is a judgment
What we are doing is certainly extraordinary
The external thing
How about we all do what we like?
Maybe that is tomorrow
All day
Tomorrow
I just want to make stuff
I am sensing there is some tiredness in the room.
Should you?
All the children could take something from home
Choose to come together
For the last question
At 6
Is that just desperation speaking in the name of pure research?
An explicit response
Or maybe nothing at al
Come
Hover
Start at 2 or 1
What you want
What you feel
Where you fell
Something you would like
A train to the coast
No problem
A little bit pissed off
No problem
When I am feeling well…
Materials
My responsibilities
That’s what I want
One o’clock
Try and find a phone number again
Ok
Great
I will then
Something is meant to be good
A vague feeling
Can we guarantee?
Yup
Thank you
So, Thai tomorrow night…